ADDventures

Brunch in one pan

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Tea biscuits cut up in small bite size pieces. I make mine homemade but you can use pillsbury biscuits if you want.

4 scrambled eggs and milk, cooked chopped bacon,  diced ham and shredded cheddar cheese

Bake for 18 minutes at 375

ADD friendly dinner

Pizza casserole

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- boiled & drained pasta of choice
-pizza sauce
-Pizza toppings of choice
-Pepperoni
- shred mozza cheese

Toss all together in the casserole dish. Except for pepperoni and cheese

Sprinkle cheese and top with pepperoni.

Bake uncovered at 375 till cheese is melted

Serve with side salad

ADD sucks

ADD fucking sucks

you can plan and plan and plan, and be a good girl, and do all the shit…ALL THE SHIT you are supposed to do, and feel proud as fucking hell that you actually accomplished shit, and you start thinking, hey…maybe if I am diligent enough, I can outsmart ADD with good planning and a hint of OCD like checklists……..

You wake up the next morning and see the clean kitchen, you fridge has been mold free for 2 weeks! TWO WEEKS…. and it brightens your mood, and you think,”It’s ok, I got this… I MOTHERFUCKNG GOT THIS. ”

Even if it takes MORE effort, and MORE time than anyone else to pull this mother and wife shit off…

THEN…..You make your tea….in the things you set out the night before, to make it not take much thought to do…..and you are chugging along, almost about to fucking HUM a cheery tune, even thought you are not a morning person, and you open the bread machine you set so diligently last night to make toast for people for breakfast, and that’s when ADD jumps out and smacks you right square in the middle of the fucking forehead.

“HA HA Bitch! You ain’t smarter then me. FUCK YOU, I OWN YOU BITCH.”

Cause you forgot to hit the motherfucking start button, and staring back at you, aside from the yeast water volcano poking up out of the flour covering it, being very much NOT a loaf of bread, is large amount of truth, and fucking self loathing and “FUCK YOU!” from your inner ADD self.

 

This is not just a one time thing. 10, 20 even 30 times a day you are reminded you have ADHD for the things you struggle with more then other people do. The lost keys, the lack of clean socks, no spoons, you forgot to buy milk,  a smelly SINGLE armpit when you are in the store shopping, and you realize when you were getting dressed that  morning and the kid came to you to help him put his socks on, you stopped in the middle of putting on underarm deodorant and not you have ONE smelly sweaty stinky pit, and so all day the wafting smell from your one  BO pit reminds you CONSTANTLY that there is no cure for ADHD, and yeah, pills only help a little and on a limited time frame, and it mother fucking exists.

So,anyone who dares tell me it doesn’t today, is gonna find their face buried in a pile of fucking gooey yeast water and flour, until you motherfucking inhale all the flour and choke on your fucking words.

ADD fucking SUCKS.

and that is the truth!

MY truth.

Change

this is what I know to be true.

  • change is hard
  • nobody likes change
  • people are creatures of habit
  • No matter what the change in that you NEED, or WANT to do in your life, you will not do it , and it will not stick until you are ready to do so.
  • I mean REALLY REALLY ready to do so.
  • you can try and try and try… but change will not happen….no matter what it is, until the mere fact of NOT changing will hurt you more than the change you know you have to instill ( and have been avoiding) in the first place.
  • when you reach that point, the change is not looked upon as something difficult…
  • it just happens…and it is more welcome, and easy to do, and you’ll think ” I should have done this a lot sooner! what was I waiting for?”
  • you were waiting to be ready….we are all in a state of “getting ready” because life is about changing, nothing ever stays the same.
  • some people around you who do not like the change, do not like it because it makes them feel like they need to also address the things in them that need to change, that your change reminds them of. If it is too much for them to deal with, they will slowly and quietly ( or sometimes harshly and quickly) disappear from your life in the way you are used to them being there.
  • It doesn’t mean your change in yourself was wrong, it just means they were not  able to handle the change, simply because THEY are still in a place where it doesn’t hurt more to stay the same…yet.

multitasking mixup

I had just finished eating a late supper, because I was outside splitting wood all evening, and was planning on taking a phone call from a ADHD online acquaintance and trying to the the kids prepped for bed all at once, and decided to multitask.

So, I was getting my 6yo son, sensoryboy, ready for bed and getting him a melatonin at the same time as getting two caffeine pills for myself, and handing my 11yo  daughter her melatonin.

In my attempt to multitask, I handed her her melatonin, got my caffiene pills, THOUGHT I handed the boy his melatonin, and then popped my caffiene pills and drank them down, while getting a drink for the kids each.

It was only when my son was standing there telling me I didn’t give him his melatonin yet that I realized that I took his small white melatonin pill that was under my large pink “wide awakes” and I never even noticed, because I was rushing, and trying to multitask.

the three of us started laughing so hard, we could not tell TMO ( theMundaneOne aka hubby) what I had done, and then just as I gathered myself to tell him while till giggling, my son “herpderped” me.

he HERP DERP-ED ME!

HAHA it was well deserved.

FYI, melatonin with 200mg of caffiene doesn’t really do much of anything.

FYI part duex. don’t get on my ass for taking 200 mg of caffiene…it’s the equivalent of a large tim horton’s coffee…with no sugar, and less shit flavour :P

never a dull moment around here I tell ya.

 

 

 

Baby Budgies

Two of our budgies started geting all hot and heavy a while ago and Stormy laid eggs in the bottom of the cage….they were duds…so we gave her a nest box and she laid another clutch of 4 eggs, and last week two hatched on Friday and Sunday. here they are a week old. TMO took them out of the box  to check them over….they are getting big and strong and will be blue to grey colour based on the parents…the older one looks like she/he will be more grey.

Stormy is a good mama, and Vapour is a diligent papa, chewing food and gvig it to Stormy to stuff the baby’s crops full.

this is our homeschooling biology/ animal husbandry homescooling lesson of the season :)

They are the most amazing cugly things I have ever seen!

Outsmart Your Brain

Take a quick look around the room you are sitting in and count how many things are the colour blue

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Now, close your eyes and tell me how many things in the room are yellow.

wait! what? I was focused on blue, not yellow.

EXACTLY!

the colour blue represents everything negative you think, feel or say about yourself, and your life and whatever current situation you are in that you place in a negative space in your mind. Be it weight loss, money issues, love issues…struggling with ADHD, being disorganized…whatever it is….

the yellow things in the room represents the things you are good at, the positive qualities you have, the positive places you want to be in the future…it represents happiness, no anxiety, smiling, feeling good, and being successful at whatever it is that is the most pressing issue causing you stress in your life right now.

Positive thinking and self esteem is powerful for performance success. This is because the higher your sense of self worth, the more things you do well. Because, you focus on the positive of it. The more things you identify you are capable of doing, the more things you focus on doing successfully, and the more you notice success and how to get there, and you keep doing it.

it is kind of like the “broken window” theory in reverse.

it is how your brain works,naturally… because of momentum, and  it is the neurology of why cognitive psychology works, and why the power of positive thinking works.

it is why how you think is so important in life. Your thoughts become the things in your life. So…change your thoughts. Outsmart your brain…Focus on the yellow instead of the blue.

get it?

my very free thinking chilren found a robin nest today, with 4 eggs in it. it was built on the side of the workshop, and being the kind of kids they are they thought they should remove it from it’s position and care for the eggs themselves, since no mother bird was around and they didn’t want the nest to destroy the siding on the workshop.

sigh…

i put it back where it was built and am hoping the mother who was gone for a bit will be back to hatch these 4 babies.

i’ve looked up info and it is too much work, with low chances of survival if they are abandoned and we tried to raise them. so if they don’t have a mother, and don’t hatch….perhaps I have a robin nest with eggs, and can find a way to preserve the eggs so they do not stink or crack, and have a piece of art from nature.

I wish they had left it. i think the mother was just away…i don’t know now if she’ll come back with the nest having been removed for over a half hour. they don’t freak from human scent, but they are very keen of knowing what the nest look slike, and will leave a nest they think has been bothered by a predator.

My kids may have created orphans by accident

scratch all that. the girl just came in and said the mother robin is back and sitting on the eggs….

Meds are not a cure, but proper administering can be a component to managing ADHD successfully

So, i had my ADHD med dose upped a few weeks ago, and it has really been an amazing difference!!!!!

For people who do not understand the struggles of dealing with forgetfulness, and scatterbrainedness, and being unable to organize your thoughts in a manner that makes getting things done easy, and stay on track, you might not appreciate just how BIG an improvement this is for me.

I have not had guests in our house since last feb when my parents came by on the way driving through to go back home from being with my uncle who died of Brain cancer last year. So i have been lax.without the pressure of company coming it is easier to say “i’ll do it later” and never get it done.

I am a shitty housekeeper. i am AWESOME in EVERY OTHER WAY in the world, but I have always been a terrible housekeeper. I have a terrible attention span to stay on track with something so boring and mundane as scrubbing floors and vacuuming. add to that two kids home all day and a disabled husband who never leaves the house except about twice a month, and a doubled list of things to do around here with only me to do them and keeping up is very difficult, especially when my ADHD meds would wear off too soon in the day.

but since my meds increase 3 weeks ago, i have managed to clean the house to a “decent” state to feel ok with allowing my daughter to have a small bday party last friday for her 10th, and the kitchen, and living room and bathroom are decluttered and relatively clean. and now, 5 day later, it is STILL clean. I’m not talking OCD clean standards. but decent. we’ll still wanna use plates and the like, no eating off the floors here, but good.

No laundry all over the couch waiting to be folded for days, the dishes are ALL WASHED and PUT AWAY, the floor has been swept, the carpet vacuumed, and just a relative overall less chaotic living space as everything finds it’s home and goes there. I’ve hung curtains and pictures in the house, cleaned the whole hallway upstairs of boxes and boxes of unpacked stuff from our move two years ago, and started on the kid den/homeschooling area, of decluttering that complete mess the kids made in there.

What’s changed? I have less anxiety and feeling overwhelmed because the meds help my brain chemistry stay on track. for the first time since before i got pregnant with my son over 6 years ago, i feel like i have the brain I had then, where the ADHD scatterbrain wasn’t so bad, that I could keep in check with routines and plans, a brain that didn’t get so overwhelmed by trying to make dinner and have people talk to it at the same time. that didn’t have so much anxiety from messing up all the time, and have panic attacks, when trying to just get a meal on the table where each component of the meal was all warm and properly cooked at the same time.

I have not had a single panic attack, emotional outburst from feeling overwhelmed in the evening starting supper and evening routines, with this new med dose. before I used to have a panic attack almost every night, get flustered, snap at people, nd end up cranky and grumpy. before my brain would just shut down and i’d be a bumbling idiot trying to not burn dinner and somehow manage to get the kids to bed in a timely fashion.

Medication/drugs is never a cure all, or the only solution, but it is a part of my better managing the debilitating ADHD I have. The meds at a proper level, along with good plans, notes, to do lists and implementing routines that become second nature to my ADHD brain mean less chaos, and a happier family over all…and I feel pretty damn good about that right now…it’s been 6 years!

I’ve been trying routines and plans for 6 years with the wrong dose of meds, and I’d fail every time. people can be as negative as they want about ADHD and medications, but I am living proof, that without the right personalized mix of meds and behaviour modifications, nether the meds will work alone, nor will the behaviour modifications work alone.

I feel like I’ve been swimming under the surface of the water for 6 years with a rock tied to my foot, and I have been struggling to get to the top for air, and I have finally broke through the surface by breaking the ropes the rock was held on with, and am able to tread water again like I used to,with my head above water and maybe soon as I catch things back up that have fallen so far behind from all the ADHD fog, i’ll be able to actually SWIM again, and maybe even WIN the race.

If you have been trying ADHD meds with no success at finding the right combo of brain chemistry alteration and behaviour modification, it might be time to see if a change is necessary. if you’ve been struggling and are on meds,maybe a coach and some help with implementing routines is needed, or if you’ve been struggling trying to implement routines, maybe the meds need to be tweaked.

I’ve fought for 6 years to find the right combination..I’ve finally found it!!!

You don’t need to feel like your drowning anymore, don’t give up!

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