ADD sucks
| January 10, 2012 | Posted by SuperADDMom under ADDventures, iRant |
you can plan and plan and plan, and be a good girl, and do all the shit…ALL THE SHIT you are supposed to do, and feel proud as fucking hell that you actually accomplished shit, and you start thinking, hey…maybe if I am diligent enough, I can outsmart ADD with good planning and a hint of OCD like checklists……..
You wake up the next morning and see the clean kitchen, you fridge has been mold free for 2 weeks! TWO WEEKS…. and it brightens your mood, and you think,”It’s ok, I got this… I MOTHERFUCKNG GOT THIS. ”
Even if it takes MORE effort, and MORE time than anyone else to pull this mother and wife shit off…
THEN…..You make your tea….in the things you set out the night before, to make it not take much thought to do…..and you are chugging along, almost about to fucking HUM a cheery tune, even thought you are not a morning person, and you open the bread machine you set so diligently last night to make toast for people for breakfast, and that’s when ADD jumps out and smacks you right square in the middle of the fucking forehead.
“HA HA Bitch! You ain’t smarter then me. FUCK YOU, I OWN YOU BITCH.”
Cause you forgot to hit the motherfucking start button, and staring back at you, aside from the yeast water volcano poking up out of the flour covering it, being very much NOT a loaf of bread, is large amount of truth, and fucking self loathing and “FUCK YOU!” from your inner ADD self.
This is not just a one time thing. 10, 20 even 30 times a day you are reminded you have ADHD for the things you struggle with more then other people do. The lost keys, the lack of clean socks, no spoons, you forgot to buy milk, a smelly SINGLE armpit when you are in the store shopping, and you realize when you were getting dressed that morning and the kid came to you to help him put his socks on, you stopped in the middle of putting on underarm deodorant and not you have ONE smelly sweaty stinky pit, and so all day the wafting smell from your one BO pit reminds you CONSTANTLY that there is no cure for ADHD, and yeah, pills only help a little and on a limited time frame, and it mother fucking exists.
So,anyone who dares tell me it doesn’t today, is gonna find their face buried in a pile of fucking gooey yeast water and flour, until you motherfucking inhale all the flour and choke on your fucking words.
ADD fucking SUCKS.
and that is the truth!
MY truth.
Reading this has made me feel better than ever! I suffer from the same bullshit and feel you. As for myself I have gone my entire life (52) yrs miserable…angry, lonely, scared, and all the ADHD symptoms you can think of. My impulsive behavior has screwed up emploment and my marriage as well. WTF!!! I hate this and wish my frikin brain would just fall out of my head!